Dear High School

Be done soon.

I've tolerated you for about as long as I possibly could, but I'm reaching my limit.

June cannot come soon enough.

From An Annoyed Senior

The story behind my username is kind of stupid and kind of childish but whatever...

Anyways, I'm a huge fairytale fan, being both a reader and a girl, and I always thought that the end of every fairytale(and they lived happily ever after) was kind of bland, as all it assured was happiness, and not much else. And I thought it was sad that all spells ended at midnight, so I made my name ever_after_12 because my ever after would last beyond midnight.

:)

I got in to my SCHOOL!!!!!

I got into University of Ottawa, which is the one I've wanted for so long!

*DIES*

Best Week EVER!

I GOT IN TO OTTAWA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

*excuse my overuse of all-caps and exclamation marks*

So, it's been a while since I've posted anything. Mostly due to time and laziness, but mostly cause my family was visiting.

Anyways, I got accepted into Carleton, which is kinda awesome cause it's really early acceptance. On the other hand, I'm lke failing all of my exams, which will lower my grades a shitload, and I might not even be able to go...

And this stupid article I'm working on is such a piece of crap, and our debate is 2mmrw and we're def. not ready cause some stupid fuck volunteered us to go.

At least I can stay home on thursday.

:(

From me, to you, f-list.




Hope it's a scary one.

;)

So, I realize I haven't posted in like, 2 months.

I got a little busy...or lazy, whichever you prefer.

But, I came out out hibernation, and that's all that matters.

:D

Anyways, not much blog-worthy stuff to post, hence the lack of posting.

However, we are coming up to my second favourite holiday, and I pimped out my lj in celebration.

I love Halloween.

Anybody doing anything special for it this year?

I am most likely going out 2 a party.

After I hand out candy, which I secretly enjoy.

And, in theme with the writers block question, anybody got any good ghost stories they wanna share?

Bored, and tired.
This is what I do...

:)

Stolen from rhianna_aurora, cause she's cool like that.

1. Bold the names of guys you'd definitely shag.
2. Italicize the names of guys you might shag after a little persuasion.
3. Leave the guys who don't do anything for you alone.
4. Put a question mark (?) after the guys you've never heard of.
5. Strike the guys you wouldn't touch with a ten-foot pole.
6. Add four of your own at the end.
NOTE THAT THESE ARE THE FICTIONAL CHARACTERS, NOT THE ACTORS THEMSELVES

Stolen from Carrington, who stole it from Whitney.
:D

Put Your Ipod or MP3 player on shuffle, and go.

:)

1. How does the world see me?
Kiss Me - Sixpence None The Richer
(awkward...)

"Oh, kiss me beneath the milky twilight
Lead me out on the moonlit floor
Lift your open hand
Strike up the band and make the fireflies dance"

2. Will I have a happy life?
Free Falling - Tom Petty
(My life is the new Twilight)

"All the vampires walkin' through the valley
Move west down ventura boulevard
All the bad boys are standing in the shadows
All the good girls are home with broken hearts"

3. What do my friends really think of me?
Gypsy Eyes - Jimi Hendrix

" Well, I realize I've been hypnotized.
I love your gypsy eyes."

4. Do people secretly lust after me?
Summertime - Sublime

"So take this veil from off my eyes
My burning sun will some day rise"

5. How can I make myself happy?
Falling For You - Ronnie Day
(So, apparently, I need a boy...)

"She's like an hourglass that never got the sand
She's hollow and transparent like an infant
He's a lonely boy but he still loves his life
He doesn't look to make a scene he looks to make right"

6. What should I do with my life?
Come Together - Joe Cocker
(I'm as confused as you...)

"Got to be good-looking 'cause he's so hard to see
Come together right now over me"

7. Will I ever have children?
Soul Meets Body - Death Cab For Cutie

"I cannot guess what we'll discover
Between the dirt with our palms cut like shovels
But I know our filthy hand can wash one anothers
And not one speck will remain"

8. What is some good advice for me?
Mad World - Gary Jules

"I find it hard to tell you
I find it hard to take
When people run in circles
It's a very, very mad world mad world"

9. How will I be remembered?
Teasing To Please - Cute Is What We Aim For
(well, that's nice...-_-)

"And so typically
Soft, set back and perfectly dropped
Tough and learn, and so perfectly taught"

10. What is my signature dancing song?
I Wanna Be A Kennedy - Kill Hannah

"I wanna be a Kennedy
I wanna be a big heartbreaker
Live fast and for real
And you can follow it in the papers"

11. What do I think my current theme song is?
Revolution - The Beatles

"You say you want a revolution
Well, you know
We all want to change the world "

12. What does everyone else think my current theme song is?
Break - The Cinematics

"I like my loneliness and the thoughts it brings
The darkness can sometimes be a pleasure to me
I stand around on the outside I’ve been peering from the edge
Looking for the answers to the questions I’ll never ask"

13. What song will play at my funeral?
Headlock - Imogene Heaps
(Aw, very suitable, actually)

"Distant flickering, its greener scenery,
This weathers bringing it all back again.
Great adventures, faces and condensation,
I'm going outside and take it all in. "

14. What type of women/men do I like?
Slow Hands - Interpol

"But I am married to your charms & grace
I just go crazy like the good old days
You make me want to pick up a guitar
And celebrate the myriad ways that I love you"

15. What is my day going to be like?
Breathe(2 AM) - Anna Nalick

"2 AM and she calls me 'cause I'm still awake,
"Can you help me unravel my latest mistake?,
I don't love him. Winter just wasn't my season"

16. Will I ever have love again?
Mammia Mia - ABBA
(STFU, the movie was amazing)

"Yes, I've been brokenhearted
Blue since the day we parted
Why, why did I ever let you go?
Mamma mia, now I really know,
My my, I could never let you go."

17. What type of sex life do I have?
Such Great Heights - The Postal Service
( :D )

"
They will see us waving from such great
Heights, 'come down now,' they'll say
But everything looks perfect from far away,
'come down now,' but we'll stay..."

18. What song would be the title of my own porno movie?
Defying Gravity - Wicked Soundtrack
( um...)

"I can't want it anymore.
Something has changed within me.
Something is not the same.
I'm through with playing by the rules of someone elses game.
Too late for second-guessing.
Too late to go back to sleep!
It's time to trust my instints.
Close my eyes, and leap!"

In other news, we went to see Mamma Mia tonight.

Best movie of my life.

STFU, you know you loved it.

Bored on a Sunday night, and this is the result...

:D

What type of person do you attract? Your Result: You attract artsy people! Those free spirited artists with great imaginations find you interesting. They are usually interesting themselves, so its not a bad thing, but they CAN be a bit wifty and choose odd goals. If you like life to always be a bit 'different' from the norm, but not too extreme in any one direction, these are the people for you. If you seek logical decision making skills and good money management, you may want to change something in the way you appear. Artsy people are fun for adventure and exploring, so, have fun! (smoking weed helps too)
You attract geeks!
You attract unstable people!
You attract Yuppies!
You attract models!
You attract rednecks!
What type of person do you attract? Quizzes for MySpace

What type of partier are you? Your Result: Bar Social Butterfly Not quite as bad as the 'bar slut', you like to get a bit ripped and become everyone's new best freind. You talk to everyone and anyone, keep people laughing, and with enough liquor you become the professional comedian. You get into deep-thought topics with fellow drunks, get people crying on your shoulder when they vent to you, and end up with hundreds of phone numbers of people that you simply can't recall in your cell-phone all the time.
Bar Slut
The Socialite
The rock-star party animal
The Lurker
Hardcore drunk
The designated driver
What type of partier are you? Make Your Own Quiz

What kind of person do you tend to fall for? Your Result: a person   you fall in love with people in general. this really is the best way to be, you don't discriminate against certain types, like jocks, or artsy people, or other catagories, you just follow your heart, and do what it tells you. you're on the way to a good life.
sweet-heart/funny character
skater
punk - emo
jock/cheerleader
What kind of person do you tend to fall for? Create MySpace Quizzes

Which Positive Quality Are You? Your Result: Love You are Love. Love is the glue that binds us all together. The love of family, the love of friends, the love between husbands and their wives--these things form the foundation of our happiness, our security, and our comfort. "All you need is love."
Friendship
Charity
Faith
Peace
Courage
Which Positive Quality Are You?

What mental disorder do you have? Your Result: GAD (Generalized Anxiety Disorder) You can never seem to calm down and always feel anxious for unknown reasons. You tend to not be able to concentrate and have headaches or other anxiety symptoms.
Paranoia
Manic Depressive
OCD (Obsessive Compulsive Disorder)
ADD (Attention Deficit Disorder)
What mental disorder do you have?

So, I haven't posted in a while...

Been kinda busy, I guess.

And there's a lack of things to talk about.

I have two jobs now, cashier at Zellers and Deli slave...

And right now, even though I never thought I'd say this, I kinda prefer Deli slave...

I had to stay an extra 40 minutes at Zellers, and was late for slave.

Pissed me the fuck off.

And then last night, when I finally did get to sleep, I had the weirdest/scariest dream I've had in a while.

My grandparents used to own this old house in Edmonton, and they lived in it for over 20 years. It's where my brother got sick, my Grandma had fainting spells and strokes, and was eventually bedridden and unable to do anything for herself for over 12 years, and it's where my Grandpa got cancer.

So, that house, for everyone in my family, isn't exactly full of good memories...

And later on, my Uncle was investigating the house, because he received it in the will, and found out that it was actually on top of an old graveyard, that had never been moved.

Yeah, that's also the plotline for Poltergeist.

Whatever.

Anyways, my dream begins in this house.

There's me, and a couple of my cousins just hanging out. My younger cousin Tyler, is about 5, and has never met my Grandma.

So, anyways, we're sitting there watching TV, and my cousin suggest we play with a spirit board. So we bring it out, and suddenly my Mom and Aunt are there to.

We move the pointer around for awhile, and I notice that the house feels darker, but nobody else does.

Eventually, nothing happens, and everyone goes back to watch TV.

And then it starts getting weird.

My Grandma comes in, and nobody else but me can see her.

This probably wouldn't freak anybody else out, but my memories of my Grandma are always of her unable to move, talk or do anything, so to have her be able to look at me and smile, is just so scary.

Anyways, she sits by my cousin Tyler, and he says something to her, and as I look around, I know, that nobody can see her.

I try telling my Mom and Aunt, and they get really angry because they want to believe that she's in heaven, and not a ghost.

And then we're at my Aunt Shelia's house (Great Aunt), and she starts screaming at me, calling me a devil child and stuff because I can see her sister, and she's supposed to be in heaven.

And then I leave, and as I'm walking down the steps, my Grandma is sitting on them, not saying anything, just smiling at me, wearing a pink and orange sari.

And then I sit down beside her, and she takes my hand, and then Aunt Shelia comes and screams at me some more, so I leave.

And now I have a really bad headache, like pounding my head, so I roll over, and I'm awake.

Creepy Dream, huh?

Anyways, I've got to work in like 3 hours...

I need more sleep.

:(

So, haven't posted in almost 2 weeks.

Mostly because majority of that time, I have been sleeping.

It's my hobby.

Anyways, one of my Uncles, of the incredibly Christian and homophobic variety, has decided that when his wife gives birth to his first girl of 3 children, he is going to raise her differently; different set of rules, allowances, groundings etc, based on the fact that she's a girl.

Raise your hand if this disgusts you.

*hands rise with Hermione-esque speed*

I realize that that was the way my mother and aunt were raised, but to be fair, they were raised in Guyana, a 3rd world country populated by Indians who got on the wrong boat.

One of my cousins was raised this way.

Her brother got away with EVERYTHING, and she was pretty much confined to the house until she was 17.

The blatant double standard is so disgusting, and my Uncle cites the facts that
a) Eve sinned, and therefore women are weak
b) Men are the stronger of the species
c) women can get pregnant
as reasons supporting this method.

I realize that people are always raised differently, depending on your parents, where you're born, siblings, etc, but when you live in Canada, is this really right?

(My Uncle really isn't that bad, he's a good guy, just confused)

I also, as you may know, had to put up with a SHITLOAD of homophobia while out there.

Everyone has a right to an opinion, but when it offends someone, or you know it will offend them, try not to rub it in their face.

Especially mine.

Gay slurs don't make you any more manly, or any more christian for that matter.

Give it up.

I've been back at work for a while, and have yet to work with either one of my bitchy bosses.

My good luck runs out tomorrow.

Kill me now.

Except Zellers called me back for a 2nd interview, and asked me 2 bring all of my information with me; SIN number, birth certificate, etc.

So, I think I'm hired...

Or, I hope.

I really, REALLY need have more options than just Deli Slave.

And, I'm going to see Dark Knight tomorrow.

I'm going to cry/die throughout the entire movie...

No lie.

And then Chelsea's party is Wed. night, for which I'm VERY excited, cause I haven't seen anybody in FOREVER.

But that's pretty much every summer...

:(

Icon Meme.
(given by Lizzy Rebel)


Icon Meme!
1. Reply that you wish to take part, and I will pick four of your icons.
2. Make a post (including the meme info) and talk about the icons I chose.
3. Other people can then comment to you and make their own posts.
4. This will create a never-ending cycle of icon squee!



I chose this pic because, for me, romance is always double edged. I'm a very wary person when it comes to romance, and I'm the kind of person who will always be paranoid about betrayal. And that's really reading a lot more into an icon than normal...
:)



I love this pic, because like pretty much everyone else, I love fairytales and myths, anything involving a story maybe. That, and I'm a romantic, so anything involving the two pretty much makes this pic one of my favourites.
^-^


This pic reminds me of both Harry Potter, and The Wizard of Oz. Both of which are favourite novels of mine, so instant love. And I just love the simplicity of it. Just a tree, sky, and a rainbow. I'm a simple kind of person.
Which also makes me dumb, but w/e.
:D



I think pretty much everyone is a Disney kid at heart. Even the emo kid walking down the street once upon a time loved Snow White. One of my favourite Disney movies is Peter Pan, just because, for a childrens story, the idea is just amazing. Everyone wants to be a kid again, if not for forever, than at least a little while. What always made me mad was that Wendy wanted to leave. That's why I love this pic, because if I had made that choice, I would have always regretted it.
Don't even get me started on return to Neverland.

In other news, I'll be home by tuesday morning, and ready for a Bollywood fest.
XD

The 6 year old I babysat for was hit by a car.

What is the fucking point of that.

If there is a god, as most people believe, then what is the point of a child dying?

I doubt that that little boy did anything other than be adorable and sweet.

It's horrible, and my thoughts go out to the family.

RIP Jack Hudson

So apparently homophobia is a big thing in my family.

Along with using gay slurs as insults and saying that you'd kill yourself if you turned out to be/your parents were gay.

I get that some people just aren't comfortable with it but COME ON!

Oh, and Mom?

Thanks a heap for yelling at me about being upset about it, your understanding was really helpful.

-_-

Fuck you.

And now we're on a meme, because I need something to take my mind of this bullshit that I can't say anything about unless I want to be grounded forever.

Stolen from bleeding_luv.

[x] the dark
[x] staying single forever
[ ] being a parent
[x] giving birth
[ ] being myself in front of others
[x] open spaces
[x] closed spaces
[ ] heights
[ ] dogs
[x] birds
[ ] fish
[x] spiders
[ ] flowers or other plants

Total so far: 7

[ ] being touched
[x] fire
[x] deep water
[x] snakes
[ ] silk
[x] the ocean
[x] failure
[ ] success
[ ] thunder/lightning
[x] frogs/toads
[ ] my boyfriend's/girlfriend's dad
[ ] boyfriend's/girlfriend's mom
[x] rats
[ ] jumping from high places
[ ] snow

Total so far: 14

[ ] rain
[ ] wind
[x] crossing hanging bridges
[x] death
[ ] heaven
[x] being robbed
[x] falling
[x] clowns
[x] dolls
[x] large crowds of people
[x] men
[ ] women
[x] having great responsibilities
[ ] doctors, including dentists
[x] tornadoes

Total so far: 24

[x] hurricanes
[x] incurable diseases
[x] sharks
[ ] Friday the 13th
[x] ghosts
[ ] poverty
[x] Halloween
[ ] school
[ ] trains
[ ] odd numbers
[ ] even numbers
[x] being alone
[x] becoming blind
[x] becoming deaf
[x] growing up

Total so far: 33

[x] creepy noises in the night
[x] bee stings
[x] not accomplishing my dreams/goals
[x] needles
[x] blood
[ ] dinosaurs
[ ] the welcome mat
[ ] high speed
[x] throwing up
[x] falling in love
[ ] super secrets

Final Total: 40

So, I'm a huge wimp and hate intolerance.
And if I get told I listen to bad music one more time...
Country isn't the epitome of good music.
One can only take so much.

Goodnight.

*love*

The Big Read reckons that the average adult has only read 6 of the top 100 books they've printed.

And they say kids don't read...

1) Look at the list and bold those you have read.
2) Italicise those you intend to read
3) Underline the books you LOVE.
4) Reprint this list in your own LJ so we can try and track down these people who've read 6 and force books upon them ;-)

1 Pride and Prejudice- Jane Austen
2 The Lord of the Rings - JRR Tolkien
3 Jane Eyre-Charlotte Bronte
4 Harry Potter series - JK Rowling
5 To Kill a Mockingbird - Harper Lee
6 The Bible 
7 Wuthering Heights- Emily Bronte
8 Nineteen Eighty Four- George Orwell
9 His Dark Materials-Philip Pullman
10 Great Expectations-Charles Dickens
11 Little Women-Louisa M Alcott
12 Tess of the D'Urbervilles - Thomas Hardy
13 Catch 22 - Joseph Heller
14 Complete Works of Shakespeare 
15 Rebecca - Daphne Du Maurier
16 The Hobbit - JRR Tolkien
17 Birdsong - Sebastian Faulks
18 Catcher in the Rye - JD Salinger 
19 The Time Traveller's Wife - Audrey Niffenegger
20 Middlemarch - George Eliot
21 Gone With The Wind - Margaret Mitchell
22 Great Gatsby-F.Scott Fitzgerald
23 Bleak House - Charles Dickens
24 War and Peace - Leo Tolstoy
25 The Hitch Hiker's Guide to the Galaxy - Douglas Adams
26 Brideshead Revisited - Evelyn Waugh
27 Crime and Punishment - Fyodor Dostoyevsky
28 Grapes of Wrath - John Steinbeck
29 Alice in Wonderland - Lewis Carroll
30 The Wind in the Willows-Kenneth Grahame
31 Anna Karenina-Leo Tolstoy
32 David Copperfield- Charles Dickens
33 Chronicles of Narnia - CS Lewis
34 Emma - Jane Austen
35 Persusion- Jane Austen
36 The Lion, The Witch and The Wardrobe - CS Lewis
37 The Kite Runner - Khaled Hosseini
38 Captain Corelli's Mandolin - Louis De Bernieres
39 Memoirs Of a Geisha - Arthur Golden
40 Winnie the Pooh-AA Milne
41 Animal Farm - George Orwell
42 The Da Vinci Code - Dan Brown
43 One Hundred Years of Solitude - Gabriel Garcia Marquez
44 A Prayer for Owen Meaney - John Irving
45 The Woman in White - Wilkie Collins
46 Anne of Green Gables - LM Montgomery
47 Far From The Madding Crowd - Thomas Hardy
48 The Handmaid's Tale - Margaret Atwood
49 Lord of the Flies -William Golding
50 Atonement - Ian McEwan
51 Life of Pi-Yann Martel
52 Dune - Frank Herbert
53 Cold Comfort Farm - Stella Gibbons
54 Sense and Sensibility - Jane Austen
55 A Suitable Boy-Vikram
56 The Shadow of the Wind - Carlos Ruiz Zafon
57 A Tale Of Two Cities - Charles Dickens
58 Brave New World - Aldous Huxley
59 The Curious Incident of the Dog in the Night-time-Mark Haddon
60 Love In The Time Of Cholera - Gabriel Garcia Marquez
61 Of Mice and Men - John Steinbeck
62 Lolita -Vladimir Nabokov
63 The Secret History - Donna Tartt
64 The Lovely Bones - Alice Sebold
65 Count of Monte Cristo - Alexandre Dumas
66 On The Road - Jack Kerouac
67 Jude the Obscure-Thomas Hardy
68 Bridget Jones' Diary - Helen Fielding
69 Midnight's Children - Salman Rushdie
70 Moby Dick - Herman Melville
71 Oliver Twist - Charles Dickens
72 Dracula - Bram Stoker
73 The Secret Garden - Frances Hodgson Burnett
74 Notes From A Small Island-Bill Bryson
75 Ulysses - James Joyce
76 The Bell Jar - Sylvia Plath
77 Swallows & Amazons-Arthur Ransome
78 Germinal - Emile Zola
79 Vanity Fair -William Makepeace Thackery
80 Possession-AS Byatt
81 A Christmas Carol - Charles Dickens
82 Cloud Atlas - David Mitchell
83 The Color Purple - Alice Walker
84 The Remains of the Day - Kazuo Ishiguro
85 Madame Bovary-Gustave Flaubert
86 A Fine Balance - Rohinton Mistry
87 Charlotte's Web - EB White
88 The Five People You Meet In Heaven - Mitch Albom
89 Adventures of Sherlock Holmes - Sir Arthur Conan Doyle
90 The Faraway Tree Collection - Enid Blyton
91 Heart of Darkness - Joseph Conrad
92 The Little Prince - Antoine De Saint-Exupery
93 The Wasp Factory - Iain Banks
94 Watership Down-Richard Adams
95 A Confederacy of Dunces - John Kennedy Toole
96 A Town Like Alice - Nevil Shute
97 The Three Musketeers-Alexander Dumas
98 Hamlet - William Shakespeare
99 Charlie and the Chocolate Factory - Roald Dahl
100 Les Miserables-Victor Hugo 

Hmm...
That's 42...
Not as good as I thought I'd do...
I guess I don't really read "classics" as much as I should.
But apparently I beat the average adult so :)

Ever wonder which Disney Princess You're Most Like? created with QuizFarm.com

You scored as Belle You are Belle, the adventurous princess with a big heart. You are very intelligent and like to read. You like to get your own way, but you love nothing more than to be a good friend to others. Your Prince is ugly on the outside, but your love for him makes him the most attractive man in the world. Belle 90% Jasmine. 65% Snow White 65% Ariel 55% Cinderella 45% Aurora 45%

This is pretty introspective guys, so be warned.

Mainly the result of a conversation with my best friend, and the really rainy night we seem to be having in my area of the world.

***

I wonder, really, how deeply my upbringing has affected me.
I guess everyone does, but really, how do small events really shape us?
Being bullied as a child because I was brown, is that something that has affected me on a baser level even I don't fully realize?
Is that something that I'm never going to get past, the fear that people are judging me solely based on the colour of my skin.

I've never really thought that anyone has been racially prejudiced against me in a long time.

But noticing at work, how I'm told SO much more than others that the work I'm doing isn't up to par, even when certain people just sat on the phone for half an hour and didn't do anything, or that out of everyone who went home a little early, I'm the only one that gets in trouble.

I've discussed this with my best friend before, that maybe even when someone is being racist, we can't say anything, because in the end, it wouldn't even be that's she or he is a racist, but that we "pulled the race card".

I realize that sometimes that happens, and it's horrible that people use their colour for personal or professional gain, but when did it become a stereotype to speak out against racism?

Onto something else now, because I'm fairly random like that.

Everyone has that one relative that's overly religious.
It's pretty common, no matter what religion. But my Mom's entire side is so religious they literally can't talk about it without getting into screaming matches.

I asked my Uncle once what he would do if my 4 year old cousin turned out to be gay.

He said he would disown him because he didn't want that sin to touch him.
At what point to we stop and look at the choices that religion makes for us?

When do people finally realize that blind faith only takes you so far, and that the cost of their ignorance just might be someone they love, or the person they could be.

We say religion is someones choice, but everyone is born into it, so at what point was the choice ours?

I tried to experience different religions last year, and my Mom's answer was to get my wonderful, homophobic uncle to yell at me for almost 45 mins over the phone, and then watch Sunday church specials until I understood what was right.

At what point does religion become not something you were born into, but a personal choice?

Is it ever ours to choose?

Simply based on the geography of where you are born, religion isn't something that you want, but take without question.

I realize that sometimes I and not others make a big deal of religion, but it's because whenever we go to visit with my Mom's family, it's a constant topic of discussion.

"Sam's weird cause she reads Harry Potter, and gets devil ideas"
"Sam is falling off the path, she should be rebaptized"
"Sam, you need God, where else will you turn?"

At what point is it no longer their fault, and instead becomes mine, that religion is an issue so big, that I just automatically feel uncomfortable around overly religious people.

At what point do we cease to be our experiences, and instead be ourselves?